Are you trying to make your relationship work after an affair?
Infidelity is one of the most devastating things that can happen to a relationship.
Not all affairs are created equal, but all are extremely painful and difficult to overcome.
This post will be nowhere near comprehensive, as it takes time, work, patience, risks and pain to recover from an affair.
Today we will only discuss one crucial aspect of the recovery process that many couples struggle with.
“It felt like we went to war and back together.”
This is how some couples describe their experience of recovery from an affair. Going to war is exactly what you may have to do in order to overcome the trauma that has happened to your relationship. Hopefully you will not be at war with each other, even though it may feel that way at first, but you will be at war on the same side, trying to heal the deep wound that your relationship has endured as a result of an affair.
If you cheated on your partner and want to make things better, you hopefully feel horrible.
I say “hopefully” not because I want you to suffer, but because you feeling horrible is a key element to help your partner heal. You feeling horrible means you know you did something to hurt your partner and your relationship.
You never meant to hurt your partner or your relationship.
Perhaps you thought it would be harmless.
Perhaps you were going through your own stuff and for whatever reason your relationship wasn’t giving you what you needed, so you found it elsewhere.
Perhaps it was a slippery slope – a friendly connection led to something much more dangerous and you somehow got pulled in.
You probably thought you’d get away with it, but you never meant to hurt your partner or your relationship.
You messed up, and now you feel horrible.
So I say it’s good that you feel horrible because it means that you are committed to your relationship and you know you did something bad to it. You care about your partner.
The problem with feeling horrible is that it can create a sense of shame.
The problem with shame is that it causes us to shut down and hide.
And if you are shut down and hiding after you hurt your partner in possibly one of the worst ways you could, it will be infuriating to them on a surface level, but will compound the pain and hurt on a deeper level.
If you get sucked down a “shame-hole,” which is common for partners who have cheated, you may get lost and continue to be unavailable to your partner.
Shame is so tricky, and so painful, you may not even know you are experiencing it.
Shame is the feeling that we are bad at our very core.
It is natural to try to suppress this feeling or push it away in any way we can.
You may feel dead or numb instead. You may feel like you don’t even deserve your partner because you did something so awful. You may get lost in your shame-hole and be unable to look at your partner because you feel so badly. You may be constantly looking inward, at yourself, telling yourself how rotten you are.
When you’re lost in your shame, you aren’t present with your partner.
And your partner cannot heal without you.
For your partner to get over this breach of trust and for your relationship to recover, you’re going to have to be fully present. You’re going to have to answer questions and really hear how much pain you caused your partner. Your shame will be there, but you can’t let it overtake you.
Get real with yourself.
Yes, you did something wrong. Yes, it makes sense to feel guilty. But get out of your own way – your partner needs you now more than ever.
You might be afraid they’re going to leave you, and they very well may. But if they’re willing to try to work it out, now’s your chance to give it everything you’ve got. You’re going to have to be fully present. You’re going to have to stomach the shame and face the fact that you did something really hurtful to the person you love the most.
It’s going to be rough.
You’re going to have to really understand how much pain your partner is in. You’re going to have to feel it and they’re going to really need to be convinced that you get how much hurt you’ve caused and are truly sorry.
If you’re like most partners who cheated and want to make things right, you wish you could just say “sorry” and make it all go away.
An “I’m sorry” just won’t cut it.
It’s going to be really hard. You both very well may need some help.
You need to remember that even though you did something terrible, you’re not a terrible person.
Know that this is so hard because your relationship is so important – you are so important.
Together you can make your relationship right again, but your presence is key.
Of course there are other elements to getting through this, for example your ongoing honesty and doing whatever it takes to re-establish your partner’s trust. First and foremost, you need to be present.
Being present is especially challenging when it means having to face your shame, and all your shame makes you want to do is disappear and turn away from your partner and the world.
When you find yourself spiraling down into a shame hole, remember that you did something terrible but you’re not a terrible person.
How to be present when you just want to disappear?
Try to imagine your shame as something separate from you so that you don’t get lost in it.
Practice mindfulness meditation.
Go to therapy.
If you truly want this relationship to work, you need to do whatever it takes.
If your partner’s on board to work with you to get past the affair, you can do this. You can be even happier than when you were before the affair.
You can fight the war together and win, coming out stronger than you were before it all happened.
Don’t be afraid to ask for help. It can be a smoother process with a professional, even though I can assure you it won’t be smooth. It is rough.
If you’re committed to making things right, your partner is on board and you’re willing to do what it takes, you’ll be able to get through this.
One thing that is key to the process is your total and committed presence.
If you hesitate to reach out for help, and yet wish to learn more about how to get your love right, check out my book, which may not be all you need to overcome the trauma of an affair together, but can get you started.
Cheers to your best relationship,
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IM devastated my partner of 10 yrs as cheated but not with one woman there’s about 4
Kerry,
That is so hard. I’m so sorry to hear and suggest you get support to help you through this.
All my best,
Jenev
4 must be a magic number. My husband tallied up to 4 as well
I am trying so hard to recover from my husband’s affair. I found out not long after it started. We have been married almost 31 years. It started as a “friendship” when he was attracted to a female teammate. I threw him out and he was gone for a week before I begged him to come back. The part that I can’t get over is he slept with her twice, but it was after seeing me so distraught. I saw almost all of their texts and emails and have copies of some. The pain is so great. He was in love with her and now says it was infatuation. He fell hard and fast for her and I am beginning to think I’ll never be able to forgive and get over it. I love him deeply, but don’t think I’ll be able to stay with him in the end. Please help me. I want him, but I told him all throughout our marriage to never cheat on me because I would never get over it (I know how my brain works). ? We have been going to therapy for 3 months. It’s couples therapy, but we go individually and that helps, but I’ve been having mood swings, PTSD, anxiety and can’t sleep. I’ve lost a tremendous amount of weight and my hair is falling out due to the stress of his betrayal.
Hi C, I’m so sorry to hear that you are going through this – it sounds just horrible. My advice here would be to seek professional help to help you both heal from this, together and as individuals, so naturally I’m glad to hear that you have already done so. I’m sure you have done this, but I would talk to your therapist about everything that is going on for you. You might also wish to read the book together, Hold Me Tight: Seven Conversations for a Lifetime of Love, by Dr. Sue Johnson, as there is a chapter dedicated to “forgiving injuries,” and maybe discuss what this is like to read in therapy. Take extra good care of yourself. Sending you love.
I cheated on my boyfriend with a friend of a friend and now he does not want anything to do with me. what do I do to make things right before he decides to move on?
Hi Elizabeth,
My 2 cents is to get really honest with yourself about why you cheated. Was there something missing in your current relationship? Did you want to get a reaction out of him? Get clear on that. Then, let him know how much you want to make this work, and how you’re willing to do what it takes (if that’s the case). Since there are lots of specifics to this situation that I don’t know about, I can’t give you anything more clear – but my answer for you or anyone else in this situation is to get really honest, raw and vulnerable, and make clear your intention to make things right – WITH THE UNDERSTANDING (as much as possible) of his side of things as well. Be patient, try to see things from his perspective, and be honest. Good luck, and thanks for writing in. I hope this is somewhat helpful.
Jenev
Hi,
I have been with my partner for almost 7 years, we have 2 children and he is raising my Son from a previous relationship. Up until last week I had never cheated on anyone of my serious relationships. I cheated and he caught me, the thing is we are in an open-ish relationship where if I had asked there wouldn’t have been a problem. I didn’t plan this nor look for it, I admit I had been unhappy and unsure of his true feelings for me, I felt neglected and ignored, I felt belittled and like I wasn’t good enough for him, even after almost 7 years. I was drinking, and I got caught up in the moment. He was a friend of my partner. I don’t have the answers he wants of why because I don’t even know why. I never wanted to hurt him or leave him. I have never felt so guilty in my entire life and I’ve been to prison!!! The next day he said he forgave me, and we would get over this! Then he retreats back to he doesn’t know if he will be able to because it’s still a fresh wound and is on his mind non-stop. Everything I have read online has advised me to be patient with him, and don’t blame him which I don’t! My guilt is eating me up inside and the more he throws at me the worse the anxiety is, I admit I deserve to feel guilty and I deserve his words and to watch him cry. I should feel like I messed up, this is keeping me from forgiving myself. I honestly don’t think I will ever be able to forgive myself. We are still together and both want to over come this and move on. He assures me we will, then is unsure himself. I am convinced he won’t be able to get passed this just because of his personality type. I will do everything possible to prove I love him and try and regain his trust. I am also certain I will never be in this position again. It’s sounds messed up but I know with more certainty more now than ever that he does love me and that I do love him. I have discontinued all correspondence on social media with everyone, all accounts have been deactivated, as per his request that we both do this so it wasn’t one sided, But what else can I do I want to forgive myself?? It’s hard when I see the pain I caused to a person who is not only my best friend but the only person I have truly ever felt that I love. Why did I do this, how did I let it happen. I question whether I would have confessed if not caught, I like to think I would have as guilty as I feel. I am relieved I was caught the first time even though I know in my heart I wouldn’t have pursued anything further with this guy. I don’t want to lose him and he says I haven’t but I am scared. Do you think we will pull through this?
-A Guilty Soul
Hi:
You are really feeling the guilt and I imagine you (and he) are both in so much pain…
I think if you both invest in your relationship and get some good professional help you’ll be able to pull out of this because it sounds like from what you’re writing, you both do want to make this work.
You could find a qualified therapist (hopefully near you) here: http://iceeft.com
I would also encourage you to do some forgiveness work on yourself. I like to refer people to Brad Yates’ tapping videos online– this process can be quite powerful- here is one for you:
https://youtu.be/op753RnOIBs
I wish you all the best. You both deserve to receive and enjoy all the love you have for each other — invest in yourselves and your relationship and get the right kind of assistance. Healing is best done together with a facilitator who understands how to work with you to process your feelings and move you closer and to a better place.
Jenev
Just caught my wife of 20+ years cheating with a much (22 years younger) guy. She has hidden herself behind a wall and doesn’t want to talk about it but continues to carry on family duties being somewhat quiet/withdrawn/private. I told her that I would forgive her but that we need to start talking/rebuilding soon because I am suffering intensely. Is this normal to cheat on your spouse, get caught, and then go into state of silence and say only that you “need to process all of this?” How long before I demand that we either go to counseling or at least hash it out between us? Thanks,
-Ethan
Hi Ethan,
Your desire to deal with this and not let it just “sit” as she seems to be doing is completely legitimate. Be true to yourself here — if that means demanding counseling (which I would recommend over hashing it out yourselves) — or at least agreeing on a time frame to start — Emotionally Focused Therapy for couples works wonders – you can hopefully find someone near you by visiting this site: http://iceeft.com and going to “find a therapist”
I wish you all the best as you navigate this truly difficult and traumatic situation,
Jenev
Hi, I cheated on my wife of two years and only got caught due to negligence. I say only because even though I stopped the affair I was going to hide it even though I felt guilty for fear of loosing her and breaking up our family. The truth exposed itself in the worst way and she found out and what I tried to hide in fear of loosing her came to the light of day. Since it came out, we have talked, went through all out the details of what I did, who it was with, and tried to answer the question of why I did it, which trying to answer that questions seems like I had no reason that the reasons for my infidelity were self made, telling myself that I can’t talk to my wife about sex, my laziness in not wanting to be more romantic but wanting more sex out of my wife and making her out to be the bad person, then jumping on the opportunity to flirt and ultimately have sex with someone who wasn’t my wife. We just started counseling and she has agreed to try and move on but this being the beginning stages of what I know will be a long a hard road, how can I be present on a daily basis? What can/should I do daily to be there for her even though she can barely look at me and definitely doesn’t want me touching her in any way? I don’t know what to even say to her around the house I just want to say I’m sorry every time I see her but I know that’s not going to solve anything. I want to rebuild and be there for her and assure her it won’t happen again.
Hi Robert,
I’m so glad you’re in counseling and she’s agreeing to work on this together. You seem really insightful about your past actions as well and that will only help things.
I would encourage you to stay committed to the counseling. It can feel like it goes up and down but having a professional third party facilitate discussions between the two of you and walk you through a process of recovery is so important.
You are asking a great question- “how can I be present on a daily basis?” Talking in counseling about what will help her will be important (and hearing from her about this).
One of the biggest challenges that betraying partners have in recovering from infidelity is continuing to put the work and effort in without getting much positive feedback or validation from their partners. Rather, you may experience coldness, distance and at times rage and sadness from her. It can be hard to put effort in without positive feedback, but it’s important.
Whatever you can do to show her that she is special to you — that is important too, if you express this genuinely (with words, notes, gifts). She probably feels anything but special to you right now after this discovery.
Your work together in counseling will also help you both understand what happened and why, so that she can trust more that it won’t happen again. And — it will be a safe place for her to express how she feels about the efforts you are making.
Whatever she needs from you to build trust in the short-term I would suggest you do (e.g. transparency with passwords, letting her see your phone, etc)…
These are just some ideas. Stick with the counseling. Hold the vision of a strengthened relationship on the other side of this.
Good luck,
Jenev
Thank you for this article- it puts a lot in perspective. My husband and I have been married 3 years and together for 10. He caught me in my affair recently. He told me to leave the house immediately and I have never seen him in so much pain and express so much anger and hatred toward me. I left, and haven’t been back in a week. I have expressed tremendous remorse and I am so very shameful for my actions. I have caused a world of pain and suffering and that is something I cannot forgive myself for. He’s already telling me he’s going to divorce me and that he just cant be with me after the mistrust and betrayal. Since then, I have met with our marriage counselor and confessed to him, I have taken it upon myself to own up to what I have done and acknowledge the mess I have created. I’ve answered question after question about the affair and I’ve been forthcoming. I have not begged and pleaded because what I have done is an injustice and I don’t believe I deserve to be forgiven yet. I have told him I want to work on our marriage and I truly want to make things better than they’ve ever been, but he can’t even look at me. I feel divorce is eminent at this point and I’m preparing for the absolute worst, but hoping and praying for the alternative. I’ve told him I hope he can forgive me one day, I’ve told him I want us to pull thru this and really make it work, and I’ve also given him space. Any other advice? Thank you so much.
Hi J,
I’m sorry to hear you’re in this situation, it sounds like you recognize the tremendous negative impact it’s had and it is clearly hard to see him in so much pain. The fact that you’re allowing yourself to see that and feel it is actually a positive thing though — stay the course. Don’t expect much back from him at his point or validation for your efforts because it sounds like he’s still reeling from this, understandably so.
I’m so glad you have a marriage counselor to help you make sense of this all. Keep going. When the initial impact is not as strong and you try to regain some sort of normalcy, it will make sense (with your counselor) to try to figure out how/whey this happened — to create a cohesive narrative around the whole thing — to give him (and you) some sense of understanding and to create a stronger foundation together.
One of the hardest things for partners who have betrayed the other is the fact that their partners can’t just pack it up and move on. It will take longer than you’d like, probably. If you are really committed, stay patient. There are no guarantees but there is most definitely the possibility of you both walking away stronger than ever together on the other side of this.
Good luck,
Jenev
I just found out that my husband of 19 years had an affair about 5 ago that lasted about a year but he kept in casual contact with her all this time. He says he considered leaving me at the time but didn’t because of our 3 kids. He says he wants to stay together but I’m not sure if he wants to stay for me or for the family, our kids are still fairly young we’ve got 10 years before the youngest goes to college. I’m devastated, it’s been 2 days and I can hardly sleep or eat. I never thought he would do anything like this, I was the very definition of a smug married person. I feel like I’m a roller coaster my emotions are so out of control. I feel like I want to forgive him but I don’t think I can, every time I think of what he’s done to our family my stomach heaves. How could he have been so selfish? Did he not love me at all ? Does he love me now or does he just want me to be a nanny and a maid and keep his life running smoothly? I wish I’d gone the rest of my life and never known.
Hi Audrey,
It must be so painful to be going through this — sadly it’s all too common and just gutting. I don’t have the answers to your questions, yet they all make sense that you’re asking them.
If any part of you wishes to see if you can make the marriage work, I would strongly suggest you both get some professional help to move beyond this trauma. You don’t need to have the answers now as to whether or not you will be able to forgive him, but if 1% of you would like to work on this, I would strongly recommend getting professional support.
The International Centre for Excellence in Emotionally Focused Therapy (EFT) is a great resource that has EFT therapists all over the globe. EFT is a proven method of couple’s therapy that works. You can read more about Emotionally Focused Therapy here.
Good luck and I wish you all my best,
Jenev
I want to stay Anon for this. I had an affair 6 years ago with a guy I knew through mutual friends it lasted a short while. I was not going to tell my partner because the affair is long over and I wanted to forget it and not cause any pain, but I just blurted it out recently when he asked if I’d ever messed around behind his back. I just confessed that I had. Well he was so angry! I am devastated and deserve to suffer. I guess I told him as I couldn’t live with the guilt anymore. My partner is a good man, provides for us, works hard, and is capable of giving great intimacy. I still fancy him madly after nearly 12 years together. The affair was a huge mistake and not something I will ever do again, the pain in my partners eyes is almost too much to bear. I love him desperately. The other guy , in my eyes is far inferior to my partner. I want me and my partner to get over this, I know it won’t be easy and there is so much pain. They say once a cheat always a cheat but not in my case. Cheating is not worth the pain and torment to both parties involved. I just want to ask you for help with a issue that my partner keeps bringing up -he asks me obsessively about the sex with the other guy and when I think of it, it makes me feel absolutely disgusted with myself. How could I have been so pathetic and stupid to let another man touch me?! What was I thinking? Analysing this I think it was triggered by boredom,..even though I have an ideal life with my SO, it was getting stale and In a rut. We used to go out and have fun together but as time went on it became settled and routine. Not justifying my crappy behaviour any, but this is what I think happened. This guy flattered me, called me beautiful, and I stupidly and selfishly took the bait. There’s a part of me that wishes I’d kept it secret all my life but I’m glad it’s out in the open now. We are trying to work it out but it’s so hard. He no longer trusts me. Says he stayed only because he loved me too much to leave, but he was considering leaving. I will never ever do this to him again. If he cheated on me tomorrow I’d understand after what I put him through. I’m just so down and seeing him like this …just so much pain, my advice to those thinking of cheating is this : JUST DON’T!!
Hi there,
First, thank you so much for sharing your experience here. I’m sure you are not alone – I sit with many couples in my office who have had an affair and work through it together to heal. It is some of the hardest work that people can do, but many move onto be stronger together than they were prior to the affair (or the discovery thereof).
Your experience is not unlike many of the people from whom I have sat across who have cheated. I agree with you — “once a cheat always a cheat” is not the case for a lot of people. Many folks have NO IDEA the impact it will have on their partner, or don’t think of that at the time — and are horrified to see the pain they have caused.
My best advice to you would be to see if he’d be willing to talk through this with you in couple’s therapy. Having a professional guide you through a process of healing and hold space to move through difficult conversations (and ensure you hear each other and are heard) can make all the difference in the world. It is not an easy process but it is way more efficient and can be more effective than “trying this at home” on your own. <Emotionally Focused Therapy (EFT) is a fantastic model that assists couples move through such trauma together — you can search for a local therapist on their main website: ICEEFT.com.
You are asking me for help with his obsessive asking about sex with the other man? When people are cheated on it is very common to get somewhat obsessionally questioning, trying to make sense of it all. It is common for the partner who cheated to get frustrated, to feel like no matter what they are never going to be able to provide satisfying answers. Your ongoing reassurance may not FEEL like it’s making a difference but I encourage you to continue to be patient with the questions and reassure your partner that he is the love of your life and you feel as you do about your past behavior. Honesty and helping him understand how this even happened (and why it will never again) will help him make sense of it all. That is really important in the recovery process.
I really hope you can get some help together for this so that you can overcome it and be stronger as a couple a result.
I wish you all the best,
Jenev
Hi, I know this was a long time ago. But I’m curious, what actions did you do to make this better? Did it ever get resolved? Are you both still together? And if so, how long did your relationship start to feel normal again, if it did? Thanks. I’m m sorry to bring up past regrets, but anything to help my current situation would help.
hi there….I cheated on my wife about a year and a half ago. Im currently 46, she is 44. We went to counseling but it didnt help. She says she tried for a year and is still broken and wants a divorce. As I look back, I was never truthful with why I cheated on her in the first place. I missed the passion we use to have in out marriage. We were married 10 years at the time. I never told her or the counselor that. After we started counseling, The woman I had an affair with contacted me and I gave in and talked to her and got caught again and lied about it. After we finished counseling, I thought we are all better now. I never checked in on her and her feelings to see how she is progressing. After she told me that she wants a divorce this past Sunday, I have started to open up to her and will tell her the reason tonight why it happened in the first place. My wife is the most amazing, caring, loving woman any man can find and I feel like all hope is lost. I was wondering if there is any hope left? I can tell she still loves and cares for me.
Hi Peter,
Thanks for writing in and sharing your experience, and being honest with yourself. It can be easy for someone who has cheated to not to realize how much pain your partner might still be in after the affair…so many partners who cheat want to just pack it up and make it all go away but the healing process can be long and arduous at times. The added blow of more deceit after the fact makes it harder.
If you feel that she still loves and cares about you and is willing to do more work with you, and is willing to give the relationship another chance in counseling, I wouldn’t say that all hope is lost. I would suggest that you work with a highly skilled couple’s therapist — one who practices Emotionally Focused Couples Therapy as it’s the method that has the best track record and can be extremely helpful with healing the traumatic wounds of infidelity.
The International Centre for Excellence in EFT is a website that has a listing of certified EFT therapists — hopefully there is one near you.
If you both have it in you to continue to work on this, your relationship just might be stronger than ever when you are on the other side of it.
I wish you all the best and good luck,
Jenev
I cheated after having a hysterectomy I don’t know why I would ever do this. I did feel like there was nothing anymore because I could not have sex with my husband do to the pain it caused. I can now, But I cheated I hate my self and I know it was a horrible thing my husband does not know that I did something so bad he just know I talked to some one but believes there was more. I feel like a sick person that I could ever do this to him. I don’t know how to forgive my self and I pray everyday that I wont get caught. I have not talked to the person since the cheating happened. I don’t want my husband to find out what I did I know he will leave me but I feel I am taking the easy way out by getting away with it. I am sick with my self and don’t know how to get through this I feel if I don’t tell my self everyday how horrible I am and how sick I am. For doing this to him, Our relationship is amazing now but I know he still thinks about it everyday. There are times he will have flash backs he calls it and will freak out on me. Then it comes to the blame game. I just don’t know what to do I can’t believe I could have ever done this to him. he refused to get therapy because he says that it will never help to shear his pain with anyone.
Hi Susan,
Thank you for writing in and sharing your experience here. Clearly you feel so much remorse. You probably know my best advice would be to seek out professional support for both of you — but as you wrote, your husband is unwilling.
One of the things that stings the most about infidelity is that your partner might feel “replaced” or not so special to you. I would encourage you to continue to show how special he is to you. Another thing is to ask yourself: “how did this happen?” If you were to go to counseling for this, the therapist would likely want to help you both understand what happened — also, why it will never happen again, if that’s the case (as it sounds for you). Helping your husband understand all this once you’ve realized what happened will be an important step in your healing.
It’s a lot easier with a professional. Maybe after some time has passed he will be ready.
I wish you all the best,
Jenev
Hi,
I just cheated on my husband during the month of our wedding. We have been together 9 years and engaged for 2. I have never cheated before, but during the month of our very big and planned out wedding, I met a much older man whom I had little interest in, and cheated on my husband.
I confessed to my husband shortly after, and our relationship has been very difficult. I am overcome with guilt, and am hating myself and who I became in this affair. I hate myself for ruining our wedding, and what should have been one of the best times of our lives. My husband wants to continue to work on our relationship, even though I feel so deeply that he deserves so much more than me. Our relationship had its flaws, but going about it in this way was a devastating choice that we’re going to live with for the rest of our lives.
One of the hardest things about affairs, in addition of course to the devastation they cause on the betrayed partner, is how overwhelmed with shame and undeserved-ness the straying partner feels in the aftermath. (This is of course when the cheating partner is remorseful, which may not always be the case, but clearly it does sound that way for you). This gets in the way of healing. This gets in the way of you showing up for your partner they way he needs you right now. You don’t get to judge if you are deserving or not if your partner wants to work on it with you. As one person recently shared with their partner who betrayed her: “Maybe you aren’t deserving right now. But that’s not how love works.”
If I told you that you could get through this together (only if you swore off cheating all together) and possibly be stronger together as a result, would YOU want to work on this? Because if the answer is YES, that is what will most likely serve you best, because your husband wants to do that with you.
Express your remorse, show up for him and empathize with his pain, don’t let it cause you to shrink away as shame does to all of us … consider getting professional help too, it can go a long way. If you are committed to him now, continue to show up for him and reassure him. It is on you to hold up the healing process right now, your inclination may be to run away and shut it all down, but he needs you right now, and have faith that you can do this. Stay transparent with him, let him know you read this article and are searching online about how to make things right…!!! You can do this but please do try to get some professional help to guide the process.